Here are some of my personal learnings and insights on how I reconciled and released the illusion of my identity.

Specifically the identification of being 'spiritual' in an increasingly polarised world.

Identifying as "super-spiritual" had recently got me stuck in becoming charged and attached to the heavier energies of life, that we can all sense right now.

Living from a place that saw the world as suffering from 'spiritual warfare'. Having to wake up each day to feel the sorrows of the world and then toiling away to keep the light in and the darkness at bay.

It was just heavy-duty, and despite what some of you may think, it was not 'imagined' it's real. That said, it's as real as I make it. 

So what if I remade myself again, at a deeper level and let go of the armor? The martyrdom included.

Over the last month, I reassessed some of my objectives, my methods, and my mission.

I asked myself honestly, why I wanted some of the things I do, and if I was going about it the right way.

As always I sought some advice and support from a coach and had to dig deep with some home truths. Yes, even coaches get coaches... Best idea ever!

I realised I had been holding onto some old outdated energy, that I had to let go.

I did and it felt like opening the cargo hanger mid-ascent and letting go of what I thought I was about, including throwing out the passport.

Only to see it disappearing into the clouds, with no one noticing, even I felt indifferent by its release.

What I let go of was my 'spiritual identity'.

Including, building a business, brand, and a message rooted in high and lofty esoteric spirituality.

At a time when the world is at odds with the most basic principles of acceptance and self-governance.

I had to let it go. Not because I don't feel connected to it, but because it's not what the world needs right now, and it was preventing me from growing.

As much as I wanted to rest into the expansive ether of unity consciousness, I was using it as a form of escapism.

Every now and then I was throwing down gems from my ivory tower but I wasn't moving out into the world.

I accepted it was going through a massive shift and I was best served up above helping others in a reactive approach, safe and protected. Albeit in a scarcity mindset.

In wasn't out in the diseased lands and in the lepper colonies where I was needed.

A reference to the mental, emotional, physical, and spiritual health situation on this earth, rather than the traditional frontline workers dealing with a pandemic. Both are supporting humanity. 

That said, I was bypassing the hard work of grounding the truth of spirituality into the real day to day life, for me, and the world.

It was humbling to look at myself and ask myself these questions:

"Why do I want to write and speak of these things?"

"Is it me, or my ego?"

"Do I have a spiritual ego?"

"Do I want to be known as a spiritual leader, as a spiritual business leader?"

"Who am I helping?"

"How am I helping?"

"To what aims am I helping?"

Deep down, I could see my work was suffering from my disconnection.

I could sense I was grasping for my 'spirituality', holding onto an idea and an identity that had formed as I evolved throughout my adult life. 

Like a blanket that kept me warm on cold nights, I had become attached to my spiritual identity. Now, no longer in the cold, I had to let this cloak go, it was getting in the way.

The truth is, no one chooses a spiritual awakening. It just happens. It's a process that has some PTSD involved and requires one to go through the stages of grief.

Grieving the death of a world, and reality, a self, that once was. Only to accept something new, beyond what once was.

Once you go through something like this, which can take months, and years to integrate, it's important to check yourself again.

Check and see if you are hanging out in another form of identity or are you in your truth. 

If you are attached or averting from anything you are not in your truth. This neediness for something or away from something is a sign you are holding on. 

I was holding on and it only became known to me when I asked myself:

"What are you doing to do with it (this identity/gift)?"

I looked at my impact in the world, and while meaningful I could see there were potent spikes of impact in specific areas and a whole heap of watery fluffiness.

When I looked into those areas of potency, they were not particularly 'spiritual' at all, they were more 'human'.

That is to say, they were focused on the body, the mind, the emotions, and the soul. On guiding people with breathing, with relaxation, with an inner personal connection and somatic awareness.

At its core, they were impactful because they were accessible, in a common language, and were feeling based. They were non-dogmatic and tangible result-driven experiences.

The activities and services I am speaking of are as human as it gets, and much of the 'spiritual' work was often only seen or known by myself.

Sure, the people experiencing them could feel something shifting but they didn't know what it is. Did the need to know? Did the care?

No...

It was my ego that wanted to hold onto that as something special, as a way to define myself.

By doing that I was limiting myself from so many others that need that experience but didn't really click with the spiritual language or vibe I was putting out.

By letting go of the image of myself as spiritual and by getting real with where I am in my life right now I became more human.

In doing so my "spiritual" skills advanced, yet that's a personal thing. It's a life thing. It's an everyday thing, it's cash in the bank and a more impactful living thing.

I spent so long trying to make my personal thing my gift to the world when all I needed to do was just be myself and do what comes naturally.

By just being, I was non-dogmatic, label-free, and I opened myself up to making more impact.

I was accessible to being called upon because I was open to being what the world needed me to be. Not what I wanted it to want me to be.

It had me thinking about why I didn't realise this sooner. One of the main reasons is because of these reoccurring dreams I've had. 

Two in particular where I am in direct communion with a Higher Power and Greater Intelligence.

In these dreams this Intelligence is talking to me, walking with me, and showing me my path in this life. 

Clear as day I saw it and knew that is the path. When it gets to the dream state and becomes daily life it's hard to ignore.

Yet, I spent years resisting this task, and when I did start to honor it reluctantly I thought it had to be wrapped in the glitz and glam of a 'spiritual mission'. 

The "I had a dream" kind of mission that made me special.

This is a dangerous way of thinking, as warm and fuzzy as it is, it's spiritual narcissism. Even if I didn't say it in that way to others, thinking it subconsciously is enough to damage my life.

The truth is, we are the mission. We are ALL the mission.

If I dropped the idea of identity, of the yogi, the magician, the spiritual adept, the sage, and the seeker and the new age guy and just came back into my heart everything would work out.

This week, I watched the countless hours of film from my course content, and I could feel the difference when I spoke from my mind, and when I spoke from my heart. 

The scary thing is I think speaking from the mind ages us prematurely. Whereas speaking from the heart keeps us young and vital.

The result of this has been a complete re-organisation of what my offering is in the world, and how I am going to go about it. 

It's turned into a game, rather than a battle. It's a lighter way of living and easier to manage the hard work of business.

It's a massive release and relief.

Now I feel more myself and competent about bringing my service out into the world at a level I can competently manage.

Rather than grasping and stretching for lofty ideals and seeking to help people ascend to the same place.

Everyone has their own place, where they are at now, and where they can be.

Tantra at its basic level, teaches us to meet life with life. To meet the world where it's at and in the way we are able.

Deep down I already knew everything was 'spiritual' but it doesn't mean I need to teach high-level spirituality right now in my life. I have many, many winters to see before that day comes.

Especially when the circumstances on earth right now are calling for basic support. 

Not to mention I myself sometimes struggle with the basics and can lose my footing on the high-level stuff.

What does this mean? 

It means I can only teach what I have gone through proficiently. While I continue to strive personally in my own way I don't have to teach this right now or feel obliged to.

Meeting life with life means responding to it as it is. An ability to respond is responsibility. Something that is unique every time.

So, for now, the world need something I can give easily, and that is everything. I don't need to make it out to be something more than it's not and tie myself up in knots about it.

So I am stripping all of my offerings and upcoming products back to basics.

Hartspace will teach people how to:

- Learn Meditation.

- Learn Mindfulness.

- Learn Yoga

- Learn Releasing Anxiety and Stress

- Cultivate Contentment 

- Improve Quality of Life

- Create a Lifestyle That Fulfills Them

Simple. Simple is great! Simple works, simple is success and is easy to follow.

What has it taught me?

This has taught me is that wealth is an inside game.

With the market slumping, unemployment rising, stress peaking, and rising mental health issues, the wealth many people are seeking is the basics.

Wealth in terms of being able to feel supported each day, to feel connected and empowered.

Wealth to feel excited about the future and not in despair.

Wealth to feel healthy, strong, flexible, mobile and pain-free. 

Wealth to sleep better, laugh more, have better sex, and worry less.

The real wealth we all are able to achieve.

This experience has taught me that this real wealth, is the wealth within.

So from today on Hartspace is helping people realise this wealth within. 

If you or anyone you know are interested in learning these types of very practical and fulfilling practices that improve your quality of life and release a ton of unneeded suffering let me know.

I am currently preparing a 6-week program, a 6-month program, and also curating a series of audio meditations with incredible music.

I will have a variety of digital products and services to cater for all means as well as a few Lamborgini level services for people who want to take it to that stage.

I'm now enjoying this game more than ever!

Let me know what you're struggling with most right now and I can implement something easy for you to do that may just be what you're looking for. 

In Greatness and Responsibility,

Alistair Hart